Cultural differences arise when you relocate to catholic neibourghood, by mistake. I bought a house in Upstate New York thinking this is progressive area to live in. Well I end up in heavily catholic area with absolute ignorance of the Middle Ages. Let me begin this with: this is the Feng Shui Website, but this is my personal blog. I apologies, in advance, if I offended anyone without intention, with my post. This is my personal vent, we all have to vent sometimes. In Russian language, there is a perfect Word for the state of Mind like this: “ Заебало “. Скажите, сколько лет ваша психика может выдержать повтор фразы "Ты Сумашедшая"? Речитативом, как мантра? 99.9 % людей сойдут с ума если они это все время будут слушать. Вы понимаете о чем я? Почему я люблю тишину и одиночество?
For people, who do understand Astrology, as part of personality development and functions, both Vedic and Chinese, this is the VERY important fact: I am a … the Capricorn Ascendent with Aries in the Moon and Yang Wood over Yang Metal, born in the month of the Yang Water Horse, in the year of Wood Rabbit and hour of Fire Rat. I am the Jia Shen and also Gemini born in the year of Rabbit. In Matrix Numerology - Personality Day #8, Life Path #9, Path Forward Matrix Number : 864999. What does it mean? Astrology represents only about 1/60 aspect of our Karmic psychological birth reality and personality, remaining 40% are acquired through our life experiences. Remember that!
Welcome to the 21st Century New York, were being silent because it is part of your practice of solitude, especially after the loss of your spouse, means you have Dementia and Alzheimers, and not willing to go outside to deal with stupid people, especially if you don’t drive and there is … no where to really go, behind me and around me are only farms. By hey, they all think I am mentally challenged. I am a … Buddhist. For many, many year, more that 20 years now. I spend time in silence because, I don’t have a partner anyone to talk to, my spouse died. I live with my now adult sons, who were teens when it happened. I talk to them Daily. I have to handle their everyday finances. One in school and does not have any income. I run my own websites. Program it, write content, plan design and update it, while communicating with affiliates I advertise. Daily. It is my own LLC. I collect rent from 2 rental properties and pay all bills. I spend past 7 years like this. It’s been over 7 years since my spouse died. I like my loneliness. I love my silence. It helps me see my own mind clearly, without distractions of unnecessary interactions. When I moved here I did attempt to connect with people, make friend, etc. Gave gifts for charities, gifts cards to neighbors for holidays, but? They gave me diagnosis “Dementia” and I decided to stop giving. (Giving or the act of Generosity is not a part of spiritual practice in Christianity I take it, so it’s understandable). Or attempt to be-friend with anyone in United States, from now on.
About 2 month after we moved here garbage company decided to … empty all of my recycle into my driveway with sticky note on it - “don’t put your recycle in the bags, bags belong in garbage.” They could, not just give me letter. They had to empty my cans in front of everyone in the driveway. Was this “Grandiouso Stage Expression” even necessary? Are you lacking personal attentions or something? Its ok. I go it. When they dropped off my wood for a year, they “accidentally” completely cut off my internet and electrical cable, leaving us with no internet for 2 days. I installed Generac ® as soon as we moved in, so I do have power no matter what or when. Things like this have been happening since we moved in, little over 5 years ago. Missing mail, damaged packages, garbage on the front lawn, $6,000.00 electrical bills during summer months, accidental over billing for every local service, etc. But, hey, immigration with the hardship makes you stainless, really, it’s ok.
After local community potluck, we purchased bread and some salad, but when we arrived to meet everyone… they all sat at the 2 way table … with their backs toward us: me, my sons and my friend. I got up and left. This was and will ever ever be the last potluck we ever had with any neighbours. Let me just say now I most definitely never going to speak to anyone in this area until I am ready to sell and move, for good. But I have to wait to my son to graduate from Engineering school locally, before I can sell.
When you relocate, anywhere in US and if you are not catholic extremist or christian extremist - make sure to select and locate the neiborghood properly. They will make your live a living hell, if you are not part of their church. They will sniff in your garbage, to count how many beer cans you have, to tell everyone in their church meeting the morning you are an alcoholic. So when you begin job search entire township knows “this is alcoholic who smoke pot - don’t hire her or her kids”. Correct? Correct! We could not even smallest grocery clerk jobs here, in 5 years. Mind me, none of us ever drinks either Vodka, or any other liquor. I only buy wine for holidays, or taste it when I personally travel. My elder son works night as a cannabis dispensary, manager actually. And only drinks beer or cider. Regardless, they will turn you into local outcast and make sure to isolate you from the rest of the World.
I no longer visit any doctors here and never really will. After every visit I was given dam “Paint the Clock” mental capacity test. Needless to say, when you buy a property out of state anywhere in US, if you are in any way non-christian extremest - be careful. This country is made for and by catholic or christian extremist. Let’s just say I hate when people stick their nose in my garbage cans. Its none of your fucking business what I eat or drink, got it? Thats is actually very politely said. My only dream left in this lifetime is to buy a house in Bellingham, WA before I die and never see NY again. I used to love people, and my spouse loved to say: ”Honey, love animals instead, people will always try to hurt you, stay away from people, you know it, animals never will.” I think he was trying to politely let me know most Americans see me as mentally disturbed individual because I am disable, I have a Multiple Sclerosis. You know what’s funny? I am proud I have it. I run my own company. You are reading this, it means it matters. I used to love people, not anymore. I love my cats and dogs.
